220 - How'd We Do in 2025 - Resolutions Time!

Hi, I'm Scott. And I'm Seth. And we are Track Walking. Tonight, we talk about the new year.

We talk about resolutions. This is somehow become an annual thing. And here's the thing,

I could not find our list of resolutions from last year to save my life.

No, I know it's out there, but I think I probably abandoned it after about six weeks anyway. So

whatever. I don't know where I put it. I had the best of intentions though. And so I feel

like that's worth something that doesn't everyone. Like that's, that's kind of the

thing about resolutions. And that I think is what has made me so cynical about them for so long

is like they're made knowingly for so many people to be like a moonshot.

Right. Like there's like almost a bucket list rather than resolutions, you know?

Right. I'm going to do, I'm going to lose 50 pounds. I'm going to make twice as much money

this next year. I'm just like, I'm going to go to the gym twice a week every week and never miss

once. Like are you though? Are you though?

Excepting the fact that, that all of those things that you do resolutions for like would,

if you were able to pull them off, would be significant positives.

Yes. But I think, and this is, I think this is part of the thing about like,

I don't know, do we want to call them cultural resolutions or like the culture around

capital R resolutions? Like the person you would have to become to do those big moonshot resolutions

is not the person you are. That's the whole point. You want to be better. The point of a

resolution is not just to do a thing. It's to be a better version of you that allows the thing to

happen naturally. Yes. Yes. But you also need to be the person who will do the steps to actually

do that. Like you're two steps removed from the person that you want to be. You at least need

to be the one step removed. Then you'll do the steps. You're suggesting who one would actually

have to put in the work, are you? I shame on me, I guess. Shame on me. 2025. It's a real, real thing

this year. Like I'm remembering the start of mine came with a big shift in, came with a big shift

in what I was going to do at the track. Right. Some of my choices kind of got made for me at

the beginning of the year. Ultimately, I think helped to lay the foundation for me to get a lot

more laser focused on my coaching, which was great. The result of that was great.

I think it was, I'm trying to remember what mine were. I think one of mine was to try to get into

different paddocks and coach to not drink any or at least significantly fewer energy drinks

and to read, I want to say four books. Try to be realistic with that one.

You have so much more knowledge about yourself a year ago than I do.

This might have been two years ago. See, I don't know.

But I think that's what mine were. The first one, I did make it into a couple more paddocks.

Certainly not the range of paddocks that I'd hoped to be in, but I'm going to be carrying

that one into this next year because I think I'm in a much better place to be able to actually do

that. So like getting into lemons paddock, getting into NASA and SCCA paddock, champ car,

and possibly WRL, if I could make it. That's a lot. Yeah, we'll see. But those are my options,

and I want to get to at least just over half of them. I think I've actually already

got them scheduled. So we'll see. We have a lot to talk about this year.

Tired already. We're not even into this. I mean, when the show comes out, we might be into this

year, but we're not even into this year yet. No, I'm not tired. It's this fall into winter has been

way busier. So usually by this point, like I'm well rested, I'm ready to like

get focused on next year and like. Yeah, you've had some downtime. Yeah, usually. Yeah. Yeah.

There you go. Usually yes. Yeah. I'm still tired. Still resting up. I feel you. Yeah.

So a crate engine to put in a monster. Yeah, but this one's probably not broken. So

I mean, it better not be. I mean, it's got to have a warranty on it, right?

Yeah, things like that. So I think that's one of mine is to get into significantly more paddocks

than I got into this year. And I think I'm going to be able to do that. What about you? We'll go back

and forth. I'll do when you do one. Okay. So I think last year, God, I don't even know what I was

trying to do. I know as I got into the year, I was trying to be focused on things that weren't

the doom scrolling news type thing associated with sort of the end of last year and

the impending doom that was going to happen with that. And I did sort of a crap job.

My brain seems to think that being informed is the same as doing something.

Say that again, because that is conflated a lot. Yeah. My brain seems to be convinced that

being informed is the same as doing something. Being outraged is action, right? Yeah.

But there's a whole marketing strategy around that.

Yeah, I've been thinking about it a lot lately and how I needed to detach from that.

There's a big part of the world that leads me from one outrage to another.

And it's not just political. You can find that in like follow Formula One.

Sure. And Formula One has got like, you know, one scandal, one outrage. What did so and so say?

Like it's... Clickbait. There's no such thing as Formula One news. There's like Formula One gossip.

Yeah. And they want to keep you emotionally invested in what's going on.

Isn't that... I kind of find that to be so much of like sports commentary, well,

help probably commentary of any sort. It's really just people sharing opinions

that are mildly informed by facts or experiences.

Yeah. So it's like, how did this make you feel? Like we talk about that a lot, but the entire world

is seems to be, I want to elicit a reaction from you and then hear about it.

And that's the nature of engagement. And we joke about that on our show.

Certainly. But maybe that's all we're doing anyway.

Yeah, that's fair. Maybe we are the problem.

So I would like to engage with outrage less.

And what bothers me about that sort of resolution is I feel like it's not particularly actionable

other than being like, I'm not going to internet as much.

I don't know, but that's, I mean, that's a choice though.

Right. Right. I mean, that's certainly an aspect of it, right?

It's just stay out of the corners of the internet that are designed to make me

emotionally invested in things that I have, that my emotional energy has no impact on anyway.

Sure. So that's going to be an evolving thing

through next year. We're going to see how I do with it. It's probably a multi-year

part of that sort of thing. I actually just had a

dear friend of mine text me a few days ago said that he deleted his Facebook.

And so I called him and, you know, we caught up for a bit and stuff like that, but

he's like, yeah, I was really only on Facebook getting in fights with my family over stuff.

So it's like, why am I on there? So he's just like, yeah, done.

Yeah. And I had a rule since I started Facebook, when I very first got on it years and years ago,

I said, I will not be your Facebook friend unless you own and drive a race car.

Like that was my rule. And so like my mom was like, why won't you friend me? I'm like,

do you own a race car? Send me your results. You're basically Mazda Motorsports support.

If you have not raced in the last two years, supports dropped 100%. That was it. And like

my aunts asked me the same thing. Oh, be my friend. I'm like, no, you don't race cars.

That's not how I'm engaging with social media. And so my Facebook feed is actually pretty clean.

But I don't look at it. And maybe the reason I don't look at it is because it's a pretty

clean feed of just like race car stuff. It's interesting, but it isn't emotionally engaging.

So maybe I've curated my ultimate social media by not just doing race cars.

But there are other parts of social media just as simple as I sort of,

like I tell people, the kind of the only thing I could do with

my retirement accounts at this point is ruin them. And so what I do is I

tangentially try to watch what's going on financially in the country and in the world

to try to like, I don't need to do anything positive. I just need to not do things negative.

Sure. And I could probably do better if I just ignored everything and just be like,

no, I don't want to pay attention to anything. But yeah, I get too wrapped up in things that

I can't control financially. I mean, to be fair, there's plenty of drama that can be had around

the race car community as well. But it's at least a different kind of drama.

Yeah, you kind of know it doesn't matter though, right?

Hopefully. But it's, it's, it's odd. It's, it's almost an odd paradox. The smaller the pond,

the bigger everything feels. Well, that's true. And like you end up arguing with people that you

know. Right. About sure, things that matter, but like in the grand scheme of things, much,

much smaller things than the, even the little stuff in the ocean, right? Right. Yeah.

So yeah, that's what I'm going to, I'm going to try to engage less with things that want

me to be outraged. I like that. I like that. My second one was to read four books. I'm on my

fourth book. I'm definitely not going to be able to finish it. It's like a 800 page novel,

science fiction seven eaves. It's this, you know, humanity ends because of the moon shattering

sort of thing. And the last of humanity is in this cobbled together space station. And

you know, they get to try to people them way, you know, figure out how to do that together. And

of course it goes all six ways to Sunday. Right. Because humans are still humans.

Yeah. So it's one of those things that's about people. It gives you a setting,

but it's really just about human nature. It's kind of why I like sci-fi and dystopian stuff is like,

it takes you out of kind of the familiar daily setting, but like it's still people making

weird choices. He's just like, it's more stark because it's in a different environment.

Yeah. It's basically it. So yeah, I definitely enjoyed the books that I did read. I definitely

would like to keep reading and studying more. I think now that I may not have as much of a

car to keep up this year, maybe I'll get to, I'd like to do another for this year.

So I'm going to love that. I love that optimism. It's beautiful. Yeah. I mean, we'll see.

Mostly, mostly what I liked about that optimism is I don't have a car to keep up this year,

as you have a crate motor that needs to be put in the car that needs to be kept up this year.

You know, so don't appreciate your tone with me right now. It's not what you're saying

that bothers me. It's how you're saying it. All right. That's, it's, I mean, you're my friend.

It's your fault too. Yeah. I mean, it's true. Yeah. That'll have to be another podcast with Becky.

Yeah. Can I ask her like, why are you doing this to Scott? Or is that too much? I think you should.

She will listen to this too. And she'll give me an earful, but hopefully she'll giggle about it.

It'll be fine. Hopefully. Hopefully. Yeah. So other paddocks and read four more books.

Okay. I'm going to do not be outraged. And your book thing is moving one of my things forward.

I am going to re-engage with the public library system. Okay.

Gonna be kind of librarian. I'm not going to be a librarian, like Conan the librarian.

But we, I used to go to the library with the kids once a week when they were little,

like that was the thing that we did. And then life just got extremely busy. Like we were just

moving all the time. And so we haven't gone to the library consistently in the better part of a decade.

Like we've been a couple of times, but I'm sure my library card here doesn't work.

So one of the things I found when I was in Durango with my wife is that

with a new place we're living, you walk down the bike path two miles to the library.

You make a right hand turn and you go two blocks and you're at her office.

So you literally walk through the grounds of the library, big, beautiful library,

to get to her work. That's pretty cool. And that, that gives me a really,

it allows me to center on something that is, is really available like that,

rather than being here. It's only whatever, a 10, 15 minute drive to the library at my house.

But it's, it became the opposite direction of school for the kids. So it wasn't on the way

to anything. It was out of the way of everything. And that's sort of how we didn't, did it and,

you know, it's on the way. And actually when I was in Durango, I stopped by,

I smiled at the nice librarian lady.

Did she smile back?

She smiled back. And I asked her what I needed to get a library card,

because I won't have a Colorado driver's license, maybe ever, but certainly not,

certainly not when I, when I'm there with my wife for the first, you know,

five, six months when I go there. And turns out I can have my name on a utility bill,

which I probably will, or there's a variety of other things. But if I have my name on a piece

of mail, or I've received mail at my address in Colorado, I can use that to get a library card.

So right like the day we are leaving to move to Colorado, I am going to put a letter to myself

in my mailbox in Texas and mail it to myself in Colorado.

And then have the key to get a library card so that I can, I can re-engage with the public

library system and, and get back into browsing the stacks and those sorts of things.

Modern problems require modern solutions.

Yeah, yeah.

That's great. I like that.

Yeah, we, we go to Barnes and Noble quite a bit because again, like it's not a library, but it is

the closest thing to us. It's right across the small highway from our house.

And they've got hot chocolate and, you know, they also have magazines for like Pokemon stuff and

whatnot that my kid likes to take a look at. They also have a pretty solid Lego selection.

Yeah, they moved into that. It's pretty interesting.

Yeah. And so it's kind of an easy thing to keep going back to and, you know, have hot chocolate,

read some magazines, check out some books and then talk for a bit, browse the Legos and leave.

Yeah, we have, we have what would be a very well stocked young adult fiction section in a small

size library in my living room that we are in the process of deciding what gets moved and what

gets donated. And there's, and I don't feel bad at all about saying this. We have, we have multiple

thousands of dollars of books that are going to go off to, to live with other people.

And I don't feel bad about that. My kids are phenomenal readers. Reading was important to them.

It was something that, you know, we always talked about the books. We did those sorts of things.

But I currently have hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of pounds of books that need to be

re-homed in the next couple of weeks. So, and we have a couple places that we can do that that

are better than just sort of selling them back to used bookstores. We have some places that,

some literacy places that, that should be really good to give them to. So.

Yeah. And I've, I appreciate some of, some of the like adolescent teenage novel writing and

stuff, you know, can introduce ideas and themes and stuff like that. Some of them I find to be

fairly disposable. Like, yep, I read a book, some basic things happened and moved on, not a ton of

depth to them. Yeah. A lot of adult fictions like that as well. So. Yeah. I've, I kind of find that

that it's, there's, you know, a lot of like really exciting blockbuster Hollywood movies, honestly,

are like teenage fiction level of plot. Yeah. There's a, there's a lot of I enjoyed it,

but I'm not going to read it or watch it again. Like that's life has gotten much like that. And

I don't necessarily think that's an accident because if I, if I sell you, yeah, if I sell

you something you only want to read once, then you buy something else. If I sell you something

you want to read six times in a row, then that's one sale for, for six readings. So.

When was the last time we talked about capitalism? Do we need to do it again?

I don't know. Like we dance around the edges of it all the time.

All right. So you're going to. Re-engage with the public library.

Re-engage with public library and first one.

Not engage in the intentional outrage industry. Yeah. So you're replacing one thing with another.

Yeah. That's, I actually am hoping to like get to being that old guy with, you know,

the NPR tote bag walking into the library type thing.

With your liberal agenda.

Yeah. Absolutely.

All right. Uh, paddocks reading, um, so no or fewer energy drinks this year. So I really kept

to this pretty darn well from most of the year. Um, I think I had fewer than 10 energy drinks all

year. Wow. Um, two of them have been in the last month. I've had far fewer than 10 anyways.

Even on the one lap, I think maybe I had one, maybe, but it was all, I've just switched to the

caffeine pills, which are super mild and only caffeine, none of the like stimulants and uppers

and stuff. I've just found any time that I have, like, I just get the slightest bit jittery

and anxious, like edgy almost. And the most interesting thing I've found is that my vision

becomes ever so slightly twitchy. Like my eyes don't actually twitch, but they want to move around.

But they're wandering. They're like seeking something. Yeah. That, you know, like when you,

your eyes flick to one thing and then another to come back, it's harder for me to rest, to expand

my vision when I have energy drinks. And that's not great for driving high performance driving.

Right. Or like doing much in terms of like deep work.

But it's something certainly like when you got to get stuff done.

It was actually last week, Thursday. I knew it was going to be a hell of a day

when I'm going to work, coworker brought in the good donuts.

My first cut, which was not an easy one was square on and the painters brought us each

a big full sugar Red Bull. And boy, did I get shit done. It was a wild day.

Um, but yeah, even at the end of it, like I realized after a couple hours, I'm like,

I'm talking really fast. Yeah. I think the realization that you can't like,

this is great. And I couldn't, I couldn't do this every day. It would be too much.

I wouldn't want to. And yet I know guys who do multiple energy drinks a day. I just,

I, it's not for me. It's for me, but the energy pills certainly have

done their job and you know, have given me, you know, if I am a little,

a little tired or just need a little bit more concentration focus, they're fantastic.

Keeps me drinking water instead of whatever else is in energy drinks.

Um, yeah, it's been good. So I don't feel like I really need to make a resolution next year.

I just carry this forward sort of thing. Um, so another, I think one of my other ones was

to separate out the driving from coaching. If it wasn't a resolution, it was certainly

like a theme I wanted to take. And yeah, that's just the way for me right now.

Um, you know, again, like outside of like an endurance racing team that I'm coaching

or something like that. But if I'm coaching, coaching like multiple people doing their thing

and I'm trying to drive on top of just ain't it. I don't enjoy either one. I'm not as good at either

one and like I want to be a good coach and I want to drive well. So I'm going to keep doing that.

I'm, I'm, I'm excited. Like I was, I was sort of, I don't want to say I was hoping I would

see more of that in this last year. I think life just got away from you a little bit.

Yeah. Um, frog, frog and boiling water.

Yeah. But I'm, I'm excited to see the, the outcome of you having a couple of good solid

weekends like that this year. Very intentional driving weekends in maybe an environments that

aren't just casual, like going to gingerbread and lapping for a few days. Cause I know you did that.

Yeah. I would, since we don't have the one lap for like my intentional competitive scored

results based thing. So I think my resolution this next year will be to do competitive driving

in an environment that I haven't done before or like in a car that I haven't done before

with a team. I haven't done a with before like something like that. Um, I mean, I've obviously

driven a lot of cars for with a lot of people and stuff, but like I, something new,

want to do something new. Good for you. Thanks bud. It's exciting. Yeah, we'll see.

So, yeah. So when I got into this point last year, I was halfway through my last kids

first, like first year, it is boarding school thing, his college. So I had had at that point,

whatever, three and a half months of empty nester. And to some degree, I felt like I hadn't

been taking advantage of it in like, I was, I was resting like I needed a rest. I'd been

taking care of children for a long time, needed a rest. And then I was like, so how am I going to

really use this time in a way that, that I feel good about? And so right about this time of year,

I was like, I'm going to, I'm going to just say yes to going places more. Like there's nothing

holding me here other than wanting to hang out with my wife, which is, which is great. I do like

to hang out with my wife. Um, but I have the opportunity to go places more. And I was like,

I'm going to do that. And so in the last year, I think it started mostly started sort of towards

the end of March, halfway through March, I went up to, I went to Colorado and then went to Michigan.

And that trip, because of a snowstorm and me telling my wife to just come and hang out,

she flew up and spent four days with me up there. So that trip ended up being the better part of a

month. Yeah. And that was the first time, if I remember, that was the first time the two of you

had been at the cottage together. Ever really. Yeah. Yeah. So it was a really good thing. Like

it was great. It was like, yes, this is empty nesting. We're doing it right. We're killing it.

And then spring break, my son wanted to go on a bit of adventure. So we went up to

North Texas and did some camping. That was a big trip. That was a fun trip.

My wife and I, oh, February, I bought the Subaru. My wife and I immediately

took a trip that weekend down to South Padre Island in the Subaru.

At some point in the spring, we went to Arkansas and looked for diamonds in a dirt field.

I remember that. Summer came around. My kid wanted to go to Alaska. We went to Alaska.

Big trip. That was a really big trip. That was a really big trip. And then we spent the last

month of summer in the UP at the cottage, had a bunch of people come visit. That was a really good

time. Got back from the cottage. And we did Scotland next. Sounds about right.

Yeah, maybe. Yeah. My wife and I, we had originally planned on going to the east coast of Canada,

doing a big 10 day driving trip on the east coast of Canada. And due to some of the stuff with her

acquiring another company and the work around that, she wasn't able to take the better part

of two weeks off. There just wasn't that time in there. So we said to hell with it and we

scheduled a five day trip to Scotland. And we went to Scotland. That was great. Had a super good

time. Got back from that. And Brian DeFries was like, hey, you want to go west Texas and do stuff?

And I was like, yeah, let's go drive around. Let's go west Texas. Drive around. It'd be a good

time. So that was like almost 10 days. Doing that had a great time doing that. Then I went back to

the UP for a month and had, okay, I went and saw my daughter in Indiana at the early part of year

two, January or something. I'm trying to remember all these things. It's been a busy year for you.

Yeah. Then I was back in the UP for the better part of a month and we had family Thanksgiving up

there. It just got back from that. I feel like I just got back from that. And so I did the math and

I spent over five months away from home in Texas this year. And I spent, I didn't want to add it

all up, but a back of the napkin thing. I spent over 60 days in hotels this year. Geez. And you

know, that was in one big sweep, but still, I still, I spent another 30 days in hotels

doing other things. And I can air quote hotels because Brian and I like,

I was, I was going to say something. I was going to let, I was going to let it go though.

That was not a hotel.

It's not, it's price like a hotel. It was interesting though. And so I feel like I,

if I was going to take advantage of the, the semi-retired freedom that I had,

like I crushed it. I did that. But not a lot of it was intentional. And I guess that's,

that's one way to do it in life. Just sort of like say yes to it and go do it.

I think that can like dip your toe into it. Yeah. It's kind of like going to a liberal arts college

without a major in mind. And you just take a bunch of classes. That's a great analogy of my year

traveling. Studying a little bit of everything. Yeah. And this year, this year has to be different

because of the, the move to Durango this year. So I need to, I need to focus on things that,

that need to be done to sell the house here. Sure. And so I can't just be like, Hey,

actually I got time to go do something. I mean, I have time, but that time,

a lot of the time in the first half of the year is going to be spoken for.

That said, like I do have to drive to Durango in January in a U-Haul.

I have to fly back from Durango or I have to, then we have to fly to Michigan where my wife is

being inducted into her high school's athletic hall of fame. Amazing. Because she's, she is that

amazing. What a baller. I know. She's so cool. She's, she's so cool. So it's one of those things

where I was like, no, I'm going to like, I'm going to focus more on things that need to be done. It's

not that I'm intentionally not going to travel, but I'm going to try to, to rather than, than,

and then just grab those, those gaps in time and fill them with something interesting. I'm

going to try to grab those gaps in time and fill them with the actual shit that I need to do.

Sure. And get through the first half of the year. And then I kind of want to settle into Durango.

I think it's hard to make some place your home if you're not there.

Yeah. So I would like to spend enough time in Durango with my wife in the second half of

year that I can make it really feel like home. So the cottage is going to be seeing less use this

year. It's what I'm here. It's, it's going to have to see less this year. I can't tell you

exactly how a lot of that just depends on the flow of time. I mean, the good part is too,

is you're no longer bound for just the summer up there. Right. Yeah. It's, that's opened up

like anytime between, you know, April and November is time that I'm able to do that,

whereas it used to just be those two months in the summertime. So I have a lot more,

a lot more freedom. And that's, you know, I spent almost four months, I don't know,

three months up there and then a month in Alaska, but I spent like three months up there this year

spread it with different times. So I probably won't do that this next year,

but I will be able to, I mean, I have to drive two motorcycles up there. I have to move a

bunch of stuff up there. Like I have to go up there. So I'll enjoy it when I do.

There you go. It's going to be an interesting year for you. I'm terrified.

Yeah. So talking to Sonya PRI about the whole, you know,

moving out of the only house you've ever known sort of thing. Happens eventually.

I mean, it hasn't, to me, like my mom still lives in the house they moved to when I was four. It's

the only house I ever remember. My wife's parents still live in the house she was born in.

Like it actually doesn't have to happen. Okay. Well, I guess I was assuming my experience was

everyone's. No, and that's, I was, I was telling that to somebody, I was explaining, I'm like,

we don't come from a moving people. That's not what we do. We settle down. I couldn't count on

four hands the number of times I've moved. Yeah. I can count on one, one hand, and that includes

like all my college moves. Yeah, that's absurd. That is silly. Yeah. College and after is like,

I guess the, what would be seven, eight years after college and college? I mean,

that's where all my, all my travels work. Yeah. No, we lived, we lived different lives.

Yeah. I think that the truth. Yeah. So I have panics, reading, intentional competition.

Not so beyond that, I really haven't really don't have anything else. You know, everything else

feels like it would kind of be again, that pie in the sky, moonshots or a thing. Yeah. I did

experience, you know, what it was like to kind of lose a little extra weight this year, like during

the, especially during the spring and summertime that I would like to stay around that. I just

feel better. It's not really to like lose the weight. I just feel better.

You know, I definitely would like to start working out more to like feel better, but it's not,

I'm not working out for like a muscle or gain weight thing. I just, I just want to do the

things that help me feel good, which is, you know, the, like last year getting rid of the

energy drinks and I really need to get more sugar out of my life, but you know, here I am.

More stretching is always good. I do. I do need to do that too. My knee was, my knee was not very

happy last week. Ladders make it really bad. Eventually you're going to have to talk to a

doctor about your knee too, like. Well, once I get this whole insurance thing,

which is only going to get worse this year apparently. So. Yes, it just got more expensive

for everybody. Yeah. Yeah. I'm just not sure about that. So, yeah.

But yeah, I think that's really, really about it. So I'm, I think if nothing else, I'm,

I'm excited to see, and I'll have to, I'll type mine up in the,

the thread that we have in the discord chat, just, you know, for posterity so that I can

find it next year as we like try to reference back to what we, we talked about. Yeah. I like

my being vague and unfindable kind of. Yeah. I'm going to write it down for you if you don't.

Yeah. Great. Yeah. I do have, I do kind of have a last one. Yeah. Shoot, please. And this was,

this was when I was out sitting with a cat and watching birds today. Were you chirping at them

too? That like cat like? No, I was just, I was hanging binoculars in one hand,

petting the cat with the other. It was a good time. Does your cat make that sound when he sees birds?

No, that my cat is complete. He has no interest in birds. I mean, like he has a passing interest

in him, but he doesn't, he doesn't really want to hunt them. He's like, that's just outside

the kind of effort he wants to put into life, which I respect. Yeah. Well, he's a cat for you.

Yeah. So, so my, my vague, my vaguest arm wavious thing since all of my things have been vague,

vague and arm wavy this year. That's just kind of how I am. I have like nothing that's

actionable in a good way. Some of it is. Some of it is. I want to care more about less things.

Okay. I think my emotional energy has been spread thin.

And that has me, has me really putting, you know, like my, it has me not putting, you know,

thoughtful caring into things because I just jump from one, one thing that I sort of care about to

another thing that I sort of care about to another thing that I sort of care about. And I think I

have too many things on my plate that I sort of care about. Boy, that's an energy suck.

Yeah. I mean, life is an, I mean, considering I don't have a job and like I have no, I, other than,

you know, hanging out with my wife and making her happy. Like I don't, I don't have much direct

pull on my time. That's probably worse not having a job. Like the entropy in your life at that

point like could go anywhere. Yeah. I have to make my own decisions. It's really quite terrible.

Oh shit. We should do a, an episode on entropy. Oh yeah. That would be good. It was one of my

favorite topics. Yeah. Cause there's a, there's a lot of that in racing. Write it down. Okay.

Yeah. We'll do that. So some of that is going to, is going to come naturally as,

as I, as I moved to Durango, the house, which requires a lot of mental energy,

mowing the lawn, making sure the septic is not being a dick. You know, all of those things,

like the fact that I have to fix the back part of the garage that had the tree fall on it.

Like all of those things that are, even when they don't need to be done, they need to be done.

And so they're just in your head. Like every time you walk past the corner of the garage,

like it's not falling in. It's not leaking. It's just the Eve has knocked in a little bit. So

there's nothing wrong with it, but I got to do it. And so it, it like, it saps a little bit of

mental energy. And so it's a little bit of worry about that. And it's a little bit of worry about

the lawn. And, you know, I'm still cleaning, was cleaning up from the hurricane. It was a year

and a bit ago. And so like, I still have that stuff to, to, to do. And, you know, home ownership

is a series of constant, small, unending worries. And that's going to go away.

And so that's, that's going to be something that I care about, that I'm not going to care about

anymore. Because it's not going to be my problem. I'm going to stop motorcycle racing.

And that's going to be hard. I do like motorcycle racing. I really, really like the people I

motorcycle race with. That felt, when you said that it felt heavy. Yeah. But, but motorcycle

racing is a pretty significant mental load. Sure. Like right now we're waiting for the schedule to

come out and someone else's idea on what weekends are good weekends determines the schedule of my

life to some extent, you know, for the next six months. There's going to be a lot of racers who

don't appreciate what you just said, but like it's true. Everybody, you know, waiting on these

schedules to like schedule around basically. Yeah. And in, in my world, you know, we're,

we're dealing with a couple of, of cart tracks and the cart tracks have to schedule any national

events that are going to occur at them. They have to schedule any regional events. They have to

schedule their own race series and then you figure out where the motorcycles fit in.

Um, which is fine. That's just the hierarchy of, of stuff. There's plenty of, of car

organizations that are the same way. Like, you know, if you're at a track like Road America,

like IMSA is going to get their weekend. Yeah. And Indy car is going to get scheduled before you.

Right. And so I'm not going to have that pull on my time. I mean, I'm not going to have that

worry about scheduling around someone else's idea of where I should be at a thing.

As much as I love racing, I do love racing. I do love knowing those weekends are there and

I love knowing that I'm going to be able to go race, hang out with my friends, have a good time,

um, prep bikes for it, do all of that, but it's all, you know, it's, it's mental load.

This feels very on brand for Seth. I'm just going to say, like the idea of like

caring about what you care about and the rest is just like, I don't know, go do, do whatever you

want to. Yeah. But a lot of the, a lot of the things that I like, my, my care about has been

spread thin in this last year because there's been, even though I've had enough time to spend

five months away from away doing other things, I still have a lot of things that I care about.

And I want to care about less things and the things that I do care about. I want to care about

more deeply. I like it. So I think the task will be at the end of next year is to say

what you've done to achieve that. Yeah. That's, it's going to be hard to quantify.

It's a very hippie-dippy arm wavy. Well, I, I think it does tie into your first one about

being outrage less. I mean, that's, that's one concrete thing. And I think the same for the

the library one. I mean, that's like kind of your first concrete example of this bigger umbrella.

Right. So everything's kind of linked. Well, in the discord, write your, write your resolution down.

And it'll be interesting. And let's know how you did this year. It's always, always find it

interesting to see kind of how people think about resolutions, kind of hold to them and kind of how

it evolves year over year. It's always kind of fun. So we'll see. But link to the discord in the show

notes. We're at track walking podcast on the things. And otherwise we're in your feed. And maybe

you can share it and we'll be in someone else's feed too. Yeah. Somebody who you know,

made a resolution, share this with them. And then they can either find themselves,

probably find themselves highly superior to us in our resolutions.

Yeah. Make better. Yeah. Find people who make better resolutions and learn. Yeah.

Compare the data on your resolution. Find how to go faster.

There's your race card tie in. Anyway, well, that's going to do it for us. And

maybe for the year. Yeah. Which is weird. It is. Well, 0.25 it's been real. Thanks for listening to

us. I'm Scott and I'm fifth. And yeah, I guess we'll see you next year. Lame dad joke.

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